Hello!
Here i am starving and i have to wait for ages till they can release me.
I'm bored too. Nasib baik duduk sebelah plug boleh charge laptop. Kalau tidak, tido la nampak nye ku.

Faster la 530pm! Wanna know why?
Cos they told me they serve us food after 530pm!!!!

BOOOO!

It was disappointing that we didn't win but we sure had fun.
Good job girls!

I need running shoes but i'm way too busy to get it from Siti dearest.
I need a backpack but my daddy is being all lokek and stuff.
I need a camera and again, daddy being all lokek and stuff. - cibai.
I need lots of rest yet i get effing bored when at home.
I wanna go out but i'm super broke.
I want boyfriend to be here now but i'm effing pissed with him.- $^%$#&$###@
( tu nak maki takleh nanti kene terajang ngan die haha )

I want MR Bulat to be here with me too but nvm.

I can't wait for saturday! I'm gonna get darker. Get to see hot guys. Hot girls. And run like a big elephant.

You know what i mean kan people?

Kepala otak korang ar.

The beach party after my ClEO ultimate challenge tingy. After out picture was taken, we were approached by the NEW PAPER reporter. How cool is that? Haha.

http://www.tnp.sg/news/story/0,4136,205688,00.html?

Heres the link.

Just a few lines je..but ok pe..

I don't even know where to start.

Why does it hurt so bad when it seems MY fault?

" u know u should watch what u say."
" think before u speak"
"to u it may be fine but not to others"
"for no reasons, things are misunderstood"

i was chatting with someone whom i always joke around with when it seems that i said something wrong. I thought i was joking because we were but clearly to him it wasnn't. I'm sorry about that man. I didn't mean it in anyway. Seriously.

People keep saying this to me but what went through my mind was, how come it doesn't apply to themselves when to me, sometimes they do say the wrong things. To me especially. I never did tegur them because i didn't want to seem ngade ngade which i also got from some people. It just makes me sad that to them whatever i say is not important or hurtful but what they say is not. I wanted so bad to tell him all this but i figured its not important. Again.

Sincerely, I'm Sorry.

You know what? I think i'm just gonna shut up and won't talk unless they do. I hate being alone ( which im already am, always )but what can i do. People just don't like me. I guess its my bad that im such a bitch and a i suck at having people called "friends".

"Friends" of 8 years calls me a snob and a bimbo.

UNFORTUNATELY for the world u have the looks.

I just laughed it off but inside i was hurting so bad that after something happened i walked off for a while for a smoke and a good cry.

I have never did say anything. I always keep things to myself and i never tell them how i felt all this years because that will just end up they ganging up on me. Even if i do voice out, to them its not important or they just pretend they don't hear a thing and they'll go " I see".

I had some stupid moments years ago . Some are true but some are just fitnah. But no one ever believed me.

Im tired. Im tired of having to pretend everyday ans smile when im not.
Im just so tired.

I just came back from a long day at sentosa and i'll be going off again to ECP for Hanafi's birthday bbq pit. And the best part is kan. I'm having a fucking fight with this pantat and its pissing me off; not forgetting the fact that i get uber grumpy when im super tired.

9am
Reached Vivo City on time but dear Miss Nadiah and her friend, Siti both came later than that.NBCB. But its ok because i had a good laugh this morning. Heres what happens.

Nadiah: Khaty! Kedai da bukak? ( Are the shops opened?)
ME: Err..duh no. Why?
Nadiah: Ala! I wore slippers of different design and colours!!
Me: LOL!!!!!

I really laughed out loud! Haha. Pagi-pagi pulak tu! Terus hilang seh ngantok! She arrived 930am and when i saw her i couldn't stop laughing. And of course she wouldn't stop complaining. So we went to cheers to get the cheap slippers and she took forever to decide and look for her size. After that we to the sky train station and waited for Siti who came around 10am?? I don't remember.

Arrived sentosa. The staffs there are so uber friendly ( and cute boys too! ). There are staffs who are assigned at each skytrain station and they have to wave every single time the train arrives or leaves. -_-"

I would be soooooo embarrased but hey i think its kinda of a fun job.

K the canoeing part. Each team were briefed and steps were demostrated on how to paddle and all that stuffs. It was so funnnn!!! It was so fun that my team requested we go a second time; just for the fun of it. =)

But then guess what? ME and Julie ( our team captain ) went for the 3rd time! Haha..we helped out thats why and we're even thinking of joining the club. Tangan cramp cramp tapi best. Nak gi lagi! Btw Nick, one of them is sooo HOT!

Off to Coffee Bean to have lunch and after Julie and Siti left, Nadiah and i waitd for our boys to arrive. Hers came first and soon they left me, all alone.

Fuck la! i waited fucking 3 hours for you sia! What are you? A fucking girl??! NBCB.

Yes, I was so fucking pissed.Nasib baik ade Mee Soto. Kalau tidak da perang dunia.

It was close to 6pm when we reached the 98.7FM party. First thing that came out of my mouth was " banyak nye YPs!!!!" Haha! Seriously, there were so many of them i felt old. It was fun making fun of them and laugh at their antics. We played the uber kurang ajar Twister and stayed to " party" for awhile before heading home.

And oh! A NEW PAPER reporter ( journalist???) approached us and interviewed us about the party. I wanted to be honest but like not nice kan..so tapis tapis sikit la.

And now..

Im just waiting.
Pe tak nye! Gadoh lagi!
nbcb nbcb nbcb nbcb nbcb!!

Morning.

Im going off to sentosa now for some CLEO ultimate challenge canoeing practice tingy.

In other words,i don't know whats going on but im just going cos im in the team.

And i can't be late.


Chiaoz.

I got school at 7pm and here i am still lazing at work.
Hahs..i'm tired and lazy la...

Ok ok i gtg.
Everybody is nagging at me already.

Hmph!
Takde org kesian kan ku.



Btw this boy here is an asshole. Haha!

For those who knows..he was part of my life - FOR A MOMENT.
But it did affect me so yeah.

Hes been an asshole n he is still an asshole.
But he makes me smile and laugh every single time we chat.

Oh...~

I have work tomorow in the morning at 8am and here i am at Grandlink Square. haha. I was here with Hanafi and Hilmie ( my 2 crazy Seoul Garden collegues ) playing Left 4 Dead when they had to leave and now i'm alone.

Yes.
ALONE.

How sad can that be?

Anyways, we finally completed the finale of " No Mercy" without getting killed by the Tank. If u guys know this game you'll know what i mean.

So now i'm just waiting,waiting and waiting.
With people looking at me weirdly.

" Why is this girl all alone playing Left 4 Dead?"

what? Cannot isit? haha.

And this boy who keeps telling me hes on the way. Tapi tak sampai2. pantat tol.

The gathering.....hmm what can i say...

i cried!

Hahs.

I'm a wimp i know.

Korang2 tak paham eh gathering tu maksudnye ape??
Otak mati eh?

Ask so many questions step kau datang gitu!
Satu ngade2. Lagi satu leceh nak mampos. Abeh lagi satu anything.
Kepala otak ar. Lepas tu kalau tak ramai turun, back out.
Lagi best cancel terus! Pastu mulut bising cakap selalu plan tak jadi.

PANDAI SGT PLAN AR?!
KALAU FIKIR SENANG SGT PLAN!

Satu2 ckp miss u la...meet up soon la...itu la..ini la...
HABUK PUN TAKDE.

Korg gi tanam la kate2 korg. tu semua tak perlu!


NI kalau korg last min back out jugak ku tak tau pe nak ckp.

Look i know u guys are busy and all but i'm sure u guys can spare a lil time pe. Join for dinner pun tak pasal la. We planned and informed a week beforehand tau!

dalam bahase melayu yg korg paham kan..= PADAHAL DA INFORM SIANG2!!!


Urgh.
So frustrated.

ku nak tgk ku nye Hannah Montana.
Jgn ganggu.


NBCB tol.

Merajuk?
Me ? Mane ade merajuk?

Tak merajuk la!!


-_-"

Yeah. I know I'm suppose to be asleep at this hour since i have work tomorow at 8am. But i can't sleep and i don't know why. I'm having fun chatting with this asshole though. Haha. One sick pervert you.

I'm having my "that time of the month" and I'm having bad cramps apart from the ribcage pain too. So combo la. I don't even feel like going to work tomorow. But more work = more money. If only i enjoy my work ( Oh idi/mas, i DO enjoy working with you two except for bapaknye je.

Not hate. Just not fun and comfortable thats all.

K. now I'm sleepy.

S-L-O-W

That's was what i got for staying and helping out.

Stupid " VIRGIN" Boy.


HAHAHAHAHAHA.
Giler.

Urgh.

This took forever!!

Hey guys. As you can see i changed my skin. Again.
I got bored you see.

Haha.

K i got nth else to blog about.

I gotta go get ready for school fast.
And i got this fucked up pain just below the ribcage.
Its killing me!

CIaoz

Hey guys. I just came back from work and yeah i did my second closing shift. I still have lots to learn and guess what? I had a freaking relapse just now during closing. ( I have severe tension headache in other words migraine) I was like " not now not now". Khidir ( one of my part time partners was nice to stay till 10pm to help me out since i don't really remember what exactly to do and seeing that i was in pain ..he stayed. Aww..i love u ma man! Haha.

Idi one of my shift managers was so busy with his re-stocking he hardly had time to teach me like he promised to. So after Kid left..both idi and i did the rest and we went off to chill nearby. We irritated each other like we always do and then finally decided pto take the cab home. Haha somehow i kinda expected cos he was soooooo tired. I always have fun working with him. Even tho he annoys me 24/7 he still does his job as a shift manager. And oh ya, did i mention i worked with Mas? At Starbucks? Mas is the shift manager there too. Proud of her huh guys? I am. But damn she scares me when she go all manager-ry on me. Haha. I love u babe.

I don't fancy my store manager for some reason but hes OK la. Hes just doing his job i guess but still he gets on my last nerves and for those who knows me well, u know how i feel right....~ Haha..i always get fuck up manager. My luck i guess.

Guys!! This saturday!! Small gathering la. Da lame tak jumpe..first time tau Mas free. ( THATS BECAUSE HER BOYFRIEND MASOK NS!) haha..pandai eh kau MAs. If u're reading this..
" Pantat kau la!" haha. Giler.

Anyways, i'm working for 5 days straight not forgetting the fact that i still have to attend school at night. Its like opening.closing,opening,closing.....nak bunuh ku agaknye dorg.

K i wanna go shower and have my dinner which daddy bought for me. I'm actually too tired but im not gonna waste the food.

I just came back from meeting my ex - collegue from HOtel 81. She was at work and oh i missed her and her birthday. Oops.

So i was at home watching tv when i got a call from her.


Luckily Anwar was available so i begged him to accompany me there. We rushed down and when i saw her, her eyes were so puffed up n swollen from all that crying that i felt so sad for her and angry at that jerk of hers.

It all started of a small lie. I woulnd't exactly call it a lie not because i'm on her side. Sial la setakat bag je seh. Merepek pe ni jantan.

A few days ago was her birthday and she got a present from her manager ( a guy ). Apparently Albert ( the manager ) didn't know what to get for her so he passed some cash to Nisa, one of the collegues there and she bought the present.

A mistake done.Knowing jerk so well, she tapiskan kata2 die la. Then she explained and apologised but then on the spot he flared up and minta putus!
Its just so stupid la. Because of that??

Jerk is not working and depends on his family business ( parents ) for money and also from my friend. If i were her , since he already did shit to her lots of times; they were together for 8 years, i would just let go. I don't want a useless guy like him to be my husband. He dumped her on her birthday itself like wtf. She so deserve someone better. I advised her as i too have went through this before except the fact that i did not tunang. But the guys a jerk so i really wanted her to think it thru. Its not fair for her at all. She gave him everything! Car. Bike. Cash etc....

And oh i also told her to take back the car cos its under her sis's name so he doesn't have the fucking right to keep it.

Come on guys, so doing this to us girls. I'm not saying that all girls are nice, there are some bitches here and there but please stop being unfair to girls.

Haiz. I really hope she'll pull through. We're just gonna wait and see what happens next.

I feel for you girl. =(