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Why wont u change? Isit so difficult for u to treat me nicely?
What have i done wrong to deserve this from u?
Tak cukup ke ngan ape yg i da kasi?
instead of making things better. u make it worst! u noe how much i love u. u noe how i'm willing to do anything for u. I DON'T DESERVE THIS.

AND I'M WALKING AWAY FROM U DEAR.

This sucks.
you suck.

I'm too tired. I dunno how much longer i can take this. No one understand. in fact no one can. To those who knows my background,they would know how much i went thru. STILL..i'm going thru much more. And even they can't help me. Sometimes i realise that everything is turned to me. THEY BLAME ME FOR EVERYTHING.

Some people are just so ungrateful. Instead of complaining or seeking attention. Be thankful of what you have. And if you are talking bout loneliness or fuck-up life. COME.

TAKE A SLOW WALK IN MY LIFE.

Family. Dad n mum divorced during my O' level period. If that is not sucky enough for me that i'm going the stress of having to manage and study alone not to forget having a boyfriend ( ex ) who's constantly beating me. To top of that. I had to work part-time in order to get my OWN pocket money. And the emotional pain. Plus all the fitnah about me lurking around the whole of Bukit Panjang - maybe the whole of S'pore. ( tsk tsk. these people really love to make me famous - not that I'm complaining ) And yes. i went thru this alone. You must be thinking. Don't you have an elder sibling? oh yes i do...an elder brother that is. Who thinks nothing but himself. i miss him pampering me tho. he's the only sibling i have. But he nvr fails to treat me like shit sometimes.

No worries. I still love u abg.

After everything was settled. Dad,abg & me were left homeless. We had to put up with uncles & aunties who eventually drove us out anyway. Dad did something that hurt me as his daughter. He "persuaded" my mom & my fucking asshole son of a bitch step dad to put us up till he finds a house for us. I could feel his pain. Oh bpk. Adk sayang bpk...! But you are given till May to find a house for us;when u promised DEC last year. And please,change for the better. The good bpk i know. You know what i mean. But now bpk is so busy working that he hardly have time for us. I MISS YOU LA BOTAK. i really do.

I love u pak..

Mum always prioritise that asshole. Everything is "Om this.Om that"..Yup we call him OM. Ugly. Like him. Hate him for not respecting bpk. Fucking shithead. Too much drugs up there in the head i see. And like i said to u that night.

"Kau pukul mak ku lagi ku pecah kan muka kau. " mcm phm. i know. Definitely i would call the Men in Blue to handle that dirty bugger.Wouldn't wanna get my hands dirty for such a lousy lowlife like him.

Life now is tiring for me. Very tiring i tell ya. had to quit school halfway to work full-time. Man i swear that even tho i hate that course, I would have just went to school for the cert if not thanks to my " Dear Lovable family who DOESN'T give me any money for school or transportation" Haiz..

Boifee - read the first paragraph.

I gotta go back to work. Will continue soon. If u're bored.

FUCK OFF.